Romeo & Juliet One Again!

Jason & I have been together almost 2 weeks now. He treats me so good. Actually to be honest better than any man ever has. He is a red head even though I say I didn't want to date a red hair so my kid's would have less chance of getting red hair. He's worth the change though. He comes over on Monday & Fridays. So you know what that means? I get to see him tomorrow. I'm super excited. We are going to Sam's Club he is buying me a ring. I can't wait they have some pretty diamond rings there. I just can't wait to see him. I miss him everyday more and more. The distance kills me but he is totally worth it.

Meeting his parents!

Yesterday, I went and met Daniel's parents. They are some of the nicest people I have ever met. They are really sweet and kind. I was so nervous to meet his mom and dad. I made his family double chocolate chip brownies & sugar cookies. He means so much to me. He is sweet when I don't bug him lol. His sister was there when me and Daniel got there. She loved the brownies. Her son is going to be sooo cute. Just like her. I see where Daniel gets his good looks from. His mom and sister. His grandpa is the sweetest man. I had tons of fun with them. We ate pizza from Pizza Hut & watched The Haunting in Conneticut with his mom. I had a great time! Everyone was so nice to me. They are very kind people with big hearts. His dog is so cute its a poodle and shitzu && the other dog is like a horse on sterroids! He is freaking huge..He's a small horse. He should have his own zipcode. hahaha. Everything last night went amazing. I hope his parents liked me. I really liked them. :)

I hope I get to come over to see them again sometime soon!

A New Year, A New Decade! What a Wonderful Start To My New Life!!!

Today offically starts a new decade. I had a pretty good New Years Eve with my aunt, uncle, and cousin. I actually remember this one. I wasn't wasted this time. It was clean fun. I already made my resolutions and time to stick to them. I am changing my life for the better and no one or anything can stop me. If you don't like the new me don't be around me. It's that simple! I don't judge you so don't judge me. I don't need drama or chilidish people in my life. I need a fresh start and today is the best time to start a whole new year. This year will be the best ever! I can't wait to be more family oriented, abstinant, and a all around better person. I am done depending on people to help me. I can only count on my family and myself to help me through this transistion in my life. No one else. I am getting rid of the old and bringing in the new. I am pretty excited to see how much wait I will loose by the end of the year. That's all for now. I'll write more about my changed life at the same time tomorrow.

Your Sick? Get better!

It's offically 6:00 on Christmas Eve & mamaw is sicker than a dying dog. She was up all night hacking her lungs out and spent most of her time curled over the toliet. She was even up till 5 o'clock this morning wrapping gifts. If I was her I would of died. She is a strong woman she'll get through it. I hope she's better for Christmas so she can enjoy herself. I can't wait for Christmas so I can see all my family and we can have a dinner like we do every year. I'm very excited! I am starting 2010 with no boyfriend & I couldn't be more happy. I don't need a man to make me happy. I'm perfectly happy being single. Most men are nothing but drama and a waste of time. I deffinatley don't need drama or to waste my time. Since 2010 is a new decade I'm turning my life around. I'm deciding to be celibate. The best decision for me. If a man doesn't want to be with me because I won't have sex with him; then he's not the man for me.

Right?

Almost Christmas Time!!!

This year has been very hectic and hard for me. I lost a uncle and it was my son's 3rd birthday. I only wish he wasn't in heaven so I could spend it with him. I can't belive it's 3 years since he was born. Time goes by so fast, but I'll never forget the little but great time we had together. He will always be in my heart. I miss you more than words can even begin to describe. Christmas time is always rough for me since my best friend through middle school died after his 13th birthday on the 12th of this month. It's actually been 6 yrs. It seems like just yesterday we were at the 5th grade dance with each other. You will always be in my heart also.

Christmas shopping is finally done exactly 2 days before Christmas. I bet my mamaw is beyond relieved. She even treated herself to a margarita on the rocks with salt. I wish I could treat myself too but I have a little more than a year left before I'm 21. I mean it's taking forever. I'm only going to be 20 in May. I can't wait till Christmas is over. It's such a hectic holiday, but a great holiday since family gets together for it. I keep trying to figure out what I'm getting for Christmas, but my mamaw is so secritive I've never figured it out. I'll find out soon enough though. Can't wait!!!

Should I follow my heart or gut?

There is this boy named Daniel. He and I started dating a lil while ago but have been talking for over a month. When I met him almost a week ago for the first time in the month i've known him he told me he loved me. That made me the happiest girl in the world. Every day since then I wonder if i'm enough to keep him intrested. If i'm good enough. If he really means it.

My heart says he does and my gut says if i keep nagging he's going to leave. So in this case I'm going to follow both my heart and gut.

Maybe this time they will lead me in the right direction.

Maybe a direction I really want to go in. Who knows?...

I do love him. I have always and will always love him. This is my first Christmas with a boyfriend. He is getting me the Carrie Underwood cd for Christmas.

Today he came over and we went to Subway. He even bought me my food. :)

We went home and cuddled and shit. He fell asleep because he didnt feel good. He looks so cute when he sleeps that its hard to wake him at 8 when he had to leave :)

2010 Resolutions to be.

There is a lot of things I want to get done in 2010.

I want to get a job, go back to school, get my ged, get a steady boyfriend, loose 30 lbs, grow a inch, eat healthier, cut out white bread & sugar & many more things. Those are the thing I thought of right off the top of my head. I am trying to build a new me from the inside out. No matter how pretty I get on the outside it will never be enough to cover how I really feel in the inside. I don't feel that pretty on the inside. I feel used and abused. No more stupid shit to make me upset. No more drama & DEFINATLEY no more boys that waste my time. I don't need to spend the rest of my life worrying about boys. I need to worry about me and only me. No guy is going to be there through it all at this moment. I can only really count on myself and my family to help me thru this hard time.